Falling...

I have been dying to write on this for quite sometime.

For the very first time, I stumble upon a title for my post. 

I have not the slightest clue what it should be. 

All that I know is I am beyond thrilled for this. 

Of all the thing in this world, there's one that I have been trying to avoid. 

Those closest to me would have known this for more than a couple of years.

And those who just got to know me will raise an eyebrow every time I speak on the issue. 

What's the thing that I've been avoiding?

The feeling of falling for someone. 

Huh...lame ain't it?

I do feel that way too.

But then I realized, it is that feeling that sometimes exhibit the most human side of one. 

The part that shouts "You are a human ain't a robot." "You have a heart and it functions well."

Trust me the monologue could go on and on...I better stop. 

So what's up with that now?

Aha...the story shall begins...

Spending most of the time avoiding the feeling makes the heart forgets what it feels to fall again. 

In my case I really don't remember what it feels falling for someone.

I was so comfortable in my skin that my heart's alert system kept going haywire.

It was until some people mentioning it to me that I was finally dragged back to reality. 

However, when I came to my senses, I realized that the feelings have changed. 

Or it may be me who changed the most... 

I am no longer a teenager; the giddy, smitten part of me is now long gone. 

I'm now in my early 20's; the more mature side of me has unleashed. 

Falling for someone is no longer falling in love as it used to be way back then. 

There's more to it. 

At this very moment, there is a particular someone that I'm into. 

Someone that without him realizing brings out the best in me. 

Making me smile for no specific reason. 

Someone that eases me even in the most hectic time in life.  

Making me cherish life a bit more.

Someone that makes you wanna be a better person.

Making me wants to go the extra mile. 

I consider myself lucky to have met this person.

Not only because of what I'm feeling towards him.

It is more of the feelings that I have for myself.

And the exploding desire of getting close to the Almighty.

It is amazing to me that through all this I manage to get the better me. 

There are no words that could really describe the feeling inside. 

All that I kept uttering from day one is words of thankful and I am definitely blessed.

Of that I am sure...

I'm in a state where there's no high hopes of developing a relationship.

I am no longer fond of throwing myself into one.

There's more to life than just that. 

We are friends and may we forever be. 

As the future is not for any of us to foresee, I may stay hopeful.

But for most of the part, I leave it to the Almighty.

For he knows what's best for each one of us. 

:)

A New Chapter

It's been some time since my last post, and now I am back from hiatus. 

A lot has been happening since that very last post. 

New experience, new environment, new people and definitely a new perspective. 

I'm not sure where exactly to begin, but I'm definitely telling a story. 

Firstly, I got a job; my very first job. 

Trust me I was beyond excited and thrilled for that. 

Growing up I have always imagined the life that I wanted for myself. 

And having a job was definitely part of the prerequisite. 

So, mission accomplished. 

Or so I thought...

The job was fun, somehow there are issues I couldn't contemplate and therefore I quit. 

Of course having said that, I ensure a new job was in line first. 

:)

Next, I embark on a new experience that to me was too valuable. 

Since my job was in the metropolitan area of Kuala Lumpur, I need to travel back and forth daily; I still lives in Seremban with my family.

I signed myself up for a journey that many would rather pass than pursue. 

Having Mom by my side every day heading to the office are moments that will forever stays.

How many of us can utter "I went to the office everyday with my Mom."?

Boy, I was proud to be one of those who could say it our loud and proud. 

It created a bond that is now even tighter than it originally was. 

We are each others best best friends now.

Being in a new environment too means you'll be meeting new people. 

There are so many new friends that I came to know. 

As many would have known, me being me, I was all over the place. 

It was less than a month that I believe I have created some chaotic moments. 

I hijacked some individual's cubicle. 

I conquered the mean machine and caused a destruction most of the time; machine will either go LOCO or just give up and not work. 

Haha the good old days of the working life.

The one thing that I missed most of that chapter is the people that now I'm attached to. 

My colleagues turned out to be one of the finest batch of people I know up-to-date. 

Having them in life is another blessings that forever will stay and I really mean it. 

They are just ordinary people that makes my life extra ordinary. 

They fit in just perfectly into the my ever expanding circle of life. 

Everyday I am much more pumped up to go to work just to spend more time with them.

As I am writing this, I am deeply missing each and every one of them. 

Even now I am no longer a colleague, I still do spare some time visiting them at the office and having lunch together. 

It is one of the things that I am more than willing to do whenever the desire ignites. 

That marks the end of my post. 

There's more to come though. 

Life is never too dull to not have a story. 

Till I write again...

😊